It usually started with a simple decision “Maybe I just need a quick nap.” That thought came up more often than I realised, usually in the middle of the afternoon when everything felt just slightly harder than it should. Not exhausted, not completely drained — just not fully there. So I’d lie down, expecting a …
I didn’t think my mornings were the problem I used to assume that if I felt tired, the reason had to be the night before. If I stayed up too late, that explained it. If I woke up groggy, I blamed poor sleep. It all seemed straightforward. What I never questioned was the time I …
It didn’t feel like distraction at the time There was no clear moment where I thought, I’m distracted too often. If anything, I would have described myself as relatively focused. I could sit down, start something, and make progress. That part felt true. But there was another layer underneath that I hadn’t really paid attention …
It wasn’t something I planned to stick to Some habits start with intention. This one didn’t. One evening after dinner, I felt that familiar restlessness — not exactly tired, not particularly energetic either. Just that in-between state where sitting down didn’t feel right, but doing anything active felt unnecessary. So I went outside. No plan, …
I didn’t realise how automatic this habit was I never thought of myself as someone who relied too much on my phone. During the day, I can stay focused when I need to. I don’t constantly check notifications, and I don’t feel distracted all the time. But at night, it was different. I would get …
It always showed up at almost the same time It didn’t matter what I was working on. Sometime after lunch — usually not immediately, but maybe 30 or 40 minutes later — everything would start to slow down. Not in an obvious way. I wouldn’t suddenly feel sleepy or ready to lie down. It was …
It wasn’t something I was trying to fix There wasn’t a moment where I decided I needed to move more or change anything about how I worked. In fact, if you had asked me at the time, I probably would have said everything felt normal. I sat, I worked, I took breaks when I needed …
It didn’t start as a real experiment Most mornings, I didn’t think about what I was drinking. Coffee was just there. Part of the routine. Something I reached for without really deciding. It wasn’t even about enjoying it that much. It was more about how predictable it felt. If I was tired, coffee was the …
I didn’t notice how quickly I filled every gap There wasn’t a clear decision behind it. No moment where I told myself I needed to stay busy all the time. It just happened gradually, in ways that felt normal enough that I didn’t question them. Any small gap in the day — waiting for something, …
I didn’t expect this to make any real difference Most mornings used to start the same way. I’d wake up, lie there for a bit longer than I planned, and reach for my phone almost without thinking. A few minutes of scrolling would turn into ten, sometimes more. By the time I actually got up, …